Its was really a tired day and mentally challenge day yesterday... the CSC election day was held yesterday..... In the afternoon, went to Kampong Glam for field trip... Tiring, but it was kinda of fun ... All the unglam shooting war start again..... Haaha.... Reaching back to school, we were all feeling nervous about the election later again... I was so happy for germ, jf to get into the committee..... but when it reached me... I was disheartened..... At the end, i only able to get 2 vote out of so many..... it seems i really suck it yesterday.... i was too overconfident le.... I really really felt the bond between me , germ and jf.... sorry sam u are not there yesterday but i think u will support me also.... that they support me all the way, even i did so badly yesterday... If not i 1 vote also dun have.... I am such a disgrace, with my experiences, i still lost......

After shiyun yesterday sms me, i really wonder do i have the capabilities anot.... everyone say i am talented.... AM I really talented.... or i am jus a failure... I think is the latter one ... I need to revalue myself... where do i belong.... IDIOT OR FAILURE...... I felt that i fell to deep.... One thing make me so angry on the question on the RVP.... Even i have no kids now , i still volunteer to go down to help... and they faulted me on that..... Moreover i destroyed my fashion career with my own hands for CSC, and this is wat i got..... DISHEARTENED....

But i really think Lixian, yi wen, terence and tiong wei is the one who really have the spirit of volunteerism and are good people... At least i felt warmth from them after i lose... especially Lixian... 你是好人。。。。。 IT is a good experience after all !!!!

starry night... 8:55 PM